Monday, 8 September 2014


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah 

Hello September! 
Winter has fade spring has come to Toowoomba. Ouh I'm missing the beautiful fresh blooming flowers! Ouh I miss the smell of dirts and flowers. Ouh I miss Toowoomba. Ouh I miss the sweet friends that I left behind. Ouh how I miss the warm hug that I get every morning at school, the beautiful smiles from the beautiful peeps, the kind greetings to start the day, and the feeling I get when I saw the pretty faces as soon as I set my foot on the school ground.

Today's blog post is about them. YES, they've ROBBED my heart out. I have left my heart & soul over there and yet my body is here in Malaysia. I miss them, I miss them dearly. I hope they are well, I hope they are happy. There's nothing more that I wanted for my birthday but to fly back and get the warm hugs from them. 

My birthday is in 2 weeks time. I remembered how I spent my 14th birthday in Australia with my best friends,  we went to the flower carnival, there was a theme park other than the beautiful blooming flowers. I have known Sienna as a crazy girl who is not afraid of heights. One thing that we have in common is we love to dare our own self. Do something that we would never have thought on doing. I have always been scared of heights but I LOVE ROLLERCOASTER. She ask me to go on 3 scary rides, I only made it to 2 rides. I was so dizzy, feel like vomiting. It wasn't fun. Nope, not at all. Well of course Sienna went on for 3 rides, if she had more money I can guarantee u she would keep on going. I love Sienna very much, she is so lucky to have a beautiful and amazing mother. I hope she is well and happy. It wasn't just me and Sienna, Shiane was there as well.   Shiane is the funniest and most kindest person I have ever met. When I was acting like a pussy, sitting on the grass with my head down like a lost child, Shiane and her other friend offered me some food and drinks. That actually made me feel a lot better cause my stomach was empty before I went on the rides. Thanks Shiane, I have missed you so much, I miss your jokes, your laughs and your funny faces. You are literally the glue of our friendship. Miss u little butterfly. 

Everything change when Shiane left for Centenary Highs. Sienna and I, we don't really talk or hang out with each other. I've met lots of new friends. There's Natasha Raabe, Sarah Kemp, Alex Mitchell, Fatima Shabbir, Jahnvi Deshle, Angela Ketaki, Larissa, Emily Markey, Corrie Ann and more (so sorry if I don't mention your names here, I do remember you) 

They are my extended family, I love them so dearly. It was hard to say " I'm leaving in 2 weeks " 

I shall cherish every moments that we have forever. Thank You so much for being my friend, I wouldn't trade it for the world. The bitter sweet memories. Missing you guys so much. I'm still trying to fit in. Still trying to figure out what I'm gonna do if my plans doesn't work out. Actually, I don't have a plan. My plan was ruined, I had to change it since we had to moved back.  My plan was, 
- pass extension math or drop out of it
- pass all the core subject (English, Science, Math, HPE) 
- A for English again 
- A's for Hospitality, Home Economics & Legal Studies 
- pass QCS trial 
- pass QCS 
- get the dress done 
- senior ball/prom
- graduation 
- TAFE or University of Queensland (UQ) 

Hurmmm ... There's nothing I can do. I can't change it, I guess I have to go with the flow. Let's focus on facing my demon for next year, SPM. 

Pray for me, do wish me on my birthday, wishes can brighten up my gloomy days. It's on 22 September. I wish to see my friends again, catching up with them, get crazy cause that's how we do. That's how we live our life. Be careful, be on the look out for danger, cause it's everywhere. Don't walk alone, be with a partner. Love you guys! 

Assalamualaikum ! 

The story doesn't END here. 


Monday, 18 August 2014


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah! 
Hi ya there! Howdy howdy! 
Ok sorry about my last post, it was meant for last 2 weeks.. My internet was acting like "poop" .. Allhamdulillah I have arrived here in Malaysia.. Yes, my dad finishes his Masters.. Allhamdulillah. He wants to continue to PHD be we need a loan or scholarship to back us up.. May Allah ease everything for him and for us all.. It was a bitter sweet, cause I'm to attached to my mates in Australia.. Leaving a piece of your heart behind is not an easy task to do! Haha.. Yes it was a very emotional day, it was heart breaking to say goodbye.. I don't do changes so well.. Allah.. 
Nope! I'm not saying goodbyes to my "niggas" they all amazing! They all bloody awesome! It was a pleasure to get to know u guys, to call you lots my friends.. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! It was a hell of a day! I was a cry baby.. I don't cry in public not even when my families around.. 

I just want to take this opportunity to thank all my teachers that ever tought me, thank you so much for being so patient, I'm sorry if I ever did or say something wrong that might hurt your feelings.. THANKS to all my friends for everything.. I don't know what will happen if you guys weren't there for me.. Thank you to Natasha Raabe & Corrie Ann Smeaton cause they were the first that said "Hi, come with us, and we'll show you around the school" .. Thanks to kak @SusuShushi for showing me around the school, thanks for letting me followed you everywhere.. Sorry if I ever annoyed you akak.. 

Ok that's all for today! Don't forget to make duas for our brothers and sisters in Gaza, Syria, Rohingya, & all around the world.. Be strong! 

Eid Mubarak 2014

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah! 
 Hi there you lots! I hope you well. I am. 😊. Allhamdulillah, it's Eid already! I know, I have not posted I post during Ramadhan. I am GUILTY of doing so. 😔 how was your Ramadhan? Good? My Ramadhan, Allhamdulillah a blessed!
But the the whole world receives not 1 but 2 bad news, the #MH17 tragedy and also #Gaza. Allah... The Malaysian airlines were shot down by a the Ukraines rebels. It was believed that the plane fly over the war zone, but NO! It didn't, it the plane nowhere near the war zone.. The plane a lot higher than expected... Anyway Al-Fatihah to all the passengers and cabin crews that was on that plane... Let's not forget about our Brothers and Sisters in Gaza... May Allah grand them his Jannah.. May Allah punish who ever responsible for this act of terrorist... This is not about religion, it's about humanitarian! Let's us, regardless if race, skin colour, gender stand up for Palestinians! Boicot Israel! 
Here are some of my Eid photos! 

Sunday, 6 July 2014

Whaddup Sunday!

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah!
howdy there mate! ;)
what what what whaaaatttt duppp Sunday!
k, there's nothing much to talk about is there?
then it'll be another boring post...
kay, let's talk about Eid!
yes, yes...

I wonder, if my family and I are going to celebrate Eid
in Australia...
my dad, he has completed his master here in USQ.
Alhamdulillah, congrats!
hooraa ... hoooraaa ... 
however, he wishes to continue his study to the next level.
to PHD level, meaning 3 to 4 years of studying...
yes, my brother (Hakim) and I would probably graduate high school by then. but the decision was not ours to make,
so we have to wait for the "APPROVAL"
InshaAllah, may Allah allow me to finish my high school
in H.S.H.S
it's not that i don't want to go home, I DO WANT TO GO HOME...
but I would struggle a LOT if I leave now..
and that means failing in my final exams in high school,
not being able to go to college let alone UNI,
not gonna have my dream job,
and finally die from depression...
may Allah ease everything for me and my family...
well the best way to forget about unnecessary things is by shopping.. yeay!
I want to take this chance to acknowledge the death
of #Sharifah Aini (i'm so sorry, i don't knw how to spell her name)
and also #Linda Rafar's son who had passed away... they both were sick. 

Saturday, 5 July 2014


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah!
yeay! its Ramadhan Kareem! hoping that this ramadhan,
would be the best ramadhan!
may our days in this Holy Month filled with
#Baraqah #Forgiveness #Love #Grateful
Allah, it has been such a long time, my tiny fingers
feel so strange, I haven't type in ages!
not even in Facebook!
I've been sick and working all week,
and I've been doing just fine!
it's winter, its allergy, cold, flu, fever season..
yes, but Alhamdulillah, Allah has grant my family and I
a good health after two week of #haacuuuummmm!!! season...
yes, believe it or not, it has been a week us muslim fasting!
how quick time flies by...
but it's my first.. daadeedaadooo
nothing much, it's just a boring post... sorry ...
anyway, my days has been great, how about yours?
I hope it has been awesome!
don't forget about terawih, Al - Kafh
duas to our sisters and brothers around the world...

a BIIIIIIGGGGGGG smile for you lots!

Sunday, 8 June 2014


Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah!
hahaha sorry, I can't get the "Okay" word
out of my head..
maybe Okay would be our always....
ahhh ....
so what's up with the tittle?!
y'all pretty familiar with the tragedy of
9/11 right?
September the 11, 2001.
may them rest in Peace...
after that tragedy, many non Muslim
have only one definition towards 
"US" Muslims ..
it is heart breaking, that people judge other people by groups.
has it never occur to you that not all
muslims are terrorist.
has it never entered your mind that maybe
there's only a handful of muslim that are
a criminal/terrorist.
we shouldn't judge people by groups.
let's watch this video and I hope, I really hope
that this, will change people's perspective...  
" may you be protected from hearts that are not humble,
tongues that are not wise,
and eyes that have forgotten how to cry."

Friday, 6 June 2014


do you ever have that feeling,
that feeling after you cried,
you felt like your chest gonna burst out!
the feeling that is unbearable,
the feeling of hurt, pain and sadness
mixed together.
Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah!
guess what guess what?!
I went to grand central to watch
#The Fault In Our Stars
it was Awesome, Wicked Kick Ass
" It's a metaphor. he put the killing thing in
his mouth but doesn't give it the power to kill "
-Hazel Grace-

I want to watch it again! I do I do!
I am so grateful that I have the money to
spend on a good movie..
yeah, I treat myself with a nice movie..
I have the book, tash gave it to me as a present!

there's nothing much I can say..
y'all should go and watch it...
it was the first time I cried while watching a movie...
the fault in our stars made the coldblooded cried..
cried like a pussie...
yeah, I was being a pussie for a moment..
I cried when Isaac gave his speech for Gus's funeral..
it was funny at times,
Gus is one funny bloke..
he fell for Hazel
a living grenade...
I don't want to spoil the moments..
seriously I would watch the movie over and over again!

and also thanks heap to Tash & Jess!
you two are awesome and the kindest human I have ever met!
ok bye peops!
Assalamualaikum and have a good one!